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look back

i was looking at my old blogs today. its cool to look at some of those things. so imma try to blog more often, just for the sake of my future self.

im pretty tired. going to go to sleep soon. did a steady amount of work today. also i have a newfound love for kqed. man! im glad im making use of this tv. learning about cuttlefish and pythons makes me excited for earth day when i want to watch disney's ocean movie.

did something today that gave me a sigh of relief. i am at peace with it now. at least i dont have to worry about that anymore.

i cant wait till it stops raining. then i can start running again. and host tennis saturdays. i have a planned bike date too, cant wait to rediscover my childhood bike path. the sun will also give me a chance to play with the doggies more. they deserve much more attention than i give them right now. so sad i know. hopefully i can make up for it.

ugh i have a feeling im becoming MIA again. i need more balance in my life. it just so easy to just to be lazy but being lazy never helped nobody.

aww shoot. one more week of february left. then march. and a lot of things usually happen in march. this march is no exception. i have a buttload of things due the first 2 weeks. am i ready? i dont know, i guess we will have to see. buahaha.

im ready

to take on another week. ive had my rest, and my time to think about things. about what scares me and what overwhelms me. about my goals and what really matters to me. im glad my favorito helped me figure out that its really about the big picture. i just have to keep that in mind. things are much clearer now.

ive been actually making use of my tv lately, watching the Olympics. its pretty amazing to say the least. Olympic athletes are a special breed, yes they are. just finished watching a portion of partnered figure skating. wowww, is all ive got to say.

i had a good weekend. i had my share of laughter and good quality time. its pretty unreal how everyone is just growing up now. we are all going on this transition from this preparation for life outside of school into the real world. it kinda creeps up on you, but its good to know that there are people out there who are there for love and support.

on a side note, cold pears taste amazing. and tomorrow is the last day before lent. this year im planning on giving up red meat and soda. Even though I am not a vegetarian, I believe in green practices, and I want to try, even if its just for these 40 or so days, to lessen my environmental impact. and besides, its probably much better for my health. how it kinda works

now i gotta snap back into reality. just gotta hopefully some things fall through and it will make my life much improved. i need to keep working at it because some things dont just better themselves on their own.

this week

when its good, its pretty good. when its bad, its annoying. haha.

if this week was a sneak peek of how this semester is gonna pan out, well then, good luck to me.

i need to step up my game.

- tomorrow i start my internship
- 2 days till xyden's baby shower
- 13 days till aj's baby shower
- 22 days till my first big project is due
- 27 days till my midterm paper is due
- 28 days till my 2nd project is due
- 31 days till Xyden should be born
- 38 days till singapore and taiwan
- 58 days till the pismo wedding
- 84 days till 2 years
- 104 days till my senior show
- 105 days till graduation

I am missing a lot of dates in between. but deng. so fast huh. time to rest and get ready for tomorrow. gonna be an interesting day.

its late i know

super bowl sunday was interesting. i cant believe the Saints won. I didn't really care who won, but from what I heard I was pretty convinced the Colts were going to win. am i really blogging about sports now? who am i? haha

anyways im happy because from my awesome secret santa Lisa, I finally got my first LOMO camera!!

Diana Mini Camera

im so excited to learn how to use it and see what kind of pictures it takes.

school is keeping me quite busy, and i start my internship this coming friday. whyyyyyy. wahhhhhh. i already need a break and its only been 2 weeks since school started. cant wait till this semester is over with.

it has begun

the busy lifestyle of this semester.

i feel like im not on top of it. just not yet. theres a lot of things im forgetting, or maybe that im choosing not to remember, only to wish that it was still winter break.

i think its going to happen very fast. i mean its already february. in about 2 months ill be going to Singapore/Taiwan. When I get back from that trip, it would be less than 2 months till i graduate and have my senior show. doesn't seem like that much time at all. theres so much i want to do.

2010 is going to be an eventful year for sure. i want to keep track of it. i should start journaling/blogging more. theres this photo journalist in one of my classes, and i was thinking, hmm. if i didn't go into interior design, i think that would be a cool option. and my friend said 'yeah i think you would be good at photojournalism. your photos aren't like the ones people just take for fun. they have some kind of story. character." that made me feel good. no ones ever described my pictures like that before. i just love that theyre just snapshots of visual memory. also makes me want to buy like 10 million types of cameras and just have a day of pictures haha. if only i had that luxury.

speaking of luxury, i posted a while back a couple of things i would get one day, and the only thing i didnt get from that list is a pair of shoes that i have no desire for anymore. heres to a new list of things i will one day own when i win the lotto:

Adidas blue

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different kinds of cameras galore, new awesome shades that are awesome, and a messenger/crossover bag to replace the one i have when it retires. the seams of the strap are starting to rip. in due time. anyways, its not really about wants right now. its about needs. everything i need, i already have. i am blessed.

first day

today was my first day of hopefully my last semester of school.

it was pretty interesting. everything really hasnt hit me yet, but in due time, i know it will. do i have fears? yeah a little. but doesnt seem as scary right now for some reason. it was a pretty long day. but a good day, nonetheless.

today, i felt, was also a day of personal growth. of moving forward. as i continue to evaluate and examine myself, my life, my place in life, and what i can do to improve upon it; i can feel a progression. i feel good taking a step into a direction i am at peace with. i know now that somethings cannot just present themselves to me, i also have to go out and work for it.

I am thrusting myself into the Hands of God for him to lead me into whatever path he has planned for me.

will it be hard? probably. who knows really?

all i know, is that, He will make it worth it.

really, now..

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i cant believe i have school tomorrow. i can already feel the stress building upon myself.

this semester is going to be probably a really hard semester. sure i only have 4 classes, but they're all 3 hours long. and on top of that i have to incorporate an internship. and oh, i almost forgot, i am a club president. deng, that slipped my mind. im just not in the zone right now. ill get to it once the semester starts rollin. gonna be a busy one for sure. its gonna suck because i wont be able to really take a break. but i need to finish. its my last chance. i gotta work at it.
i gotta prove my worth.

i guess for now there is going to be a lot of sacrificing involved in this semester in order for me to get where will be best for me in the future. its going to be hard, but i know i will survive. the next thing you know it, ill be done. i will be a graduate. whoa, thats weird. sounds weird saying that. i dont believe it yet, but soon enough, it will hit me.

its going to be a real test. i have a lot of growing to do. and not only do i need to work on myself, but i also need to work on building a deeper relationship with those around me. yeah, education is important, but what is success if you do not have family and friends there to celebrate with you?

i am thankful that i have the opportunity to do all these things. travel, go to school, have great support and relationships. right now its about sacrifice, but in the end it will help me be able to do what i want to do.

i gotta keep the bigger picture in mind and work towards my goals.

one day
at a time.

math problem

how come lately ive been just uncovering old stuff from high school or whatever. i found a math problem i wrote, made me laugh.

"Captain llama lord heard that some of his shipmates were planning to steal his treasure so he decided to bury it on island bejeebers to come back for it when it was safe. Along to hlep captain llama lord was his trusty sidekick shipmate ultra Jez. Captain llama lord instructs Ultra Jez to secure a rope from the boat (Point J) and to walk 94 paces to captain's castaway (Point C). From there to turn North East and walk about 50 paces and to wait for Captain llama lord there. The captain measures the angle between the boat and where ultra Jez was and he measured it was a 75 degree angle. Where ultra jez was, is where captain llama lord buried his treasure. did the captain give himself enough information to find the treasure again? if yes, determine where. which congruence conjecture ensures the uniqueness of the treasure?"

wowww. im a weirdo. haha.

an update

looked back and done some of those stuff! so i can cross them out now! whoop whoop! =]

(4.07.2008)

THE THINGS I WANT TO DO WITH MARK LIST:

- snowboarding
- ice skating
- tennis
- golf  (the range counts right?)
- bball (playing around on the court counts right?)
- go to that one cool museum in SF (i dont even know which one im talking about anymore hahah)
- go to SF
- go everywhere hahah
- eat crazy things!
- go take salsa lessons
- cook
- replay that one AXE commercial. LOL
- think of a nickname
- go to a comedy show
- go to a concert
- rob a bank
- go to a game! (any sport, preferably warriors)
- to be continued....

(9.30.2008)

new additions to things i want to do with mark list:

- go to California Academy of Sciences in Golden Gate Park
- watch a hip hop/r&b concert.. one day want to see john legend
- go to the stinkin rose in SF
- go to a 49ers game
- go to a warriors game
- go to a SF giants game
- go snowboarding
- take a cooking class

good things of today

- i got to clean a little
- tested out my printer with photos and its great
- got some awesome pictures of my doggies
- nice weather outside
- got to finish 500 days of summer
- my body rested
- watched the bachelor
- learned new things in photoshop
- got to almost finish an invitation
-found an old letter to myself

Ginger

less than 2 weeks then school starts up again. i dont have much time left.